Damn you Stupid X(

I feel really frustrated! I'm not supposed to make a blog for this day. But something happened and it really pissed me! X(

It's our PE class awhile ago which is swimming. After class we went to the CR and took a bath. After I changed, I hung my swimsuit somewhere near me. But now, it's LOST! SH*T! I forgot to packed it. Now it's lost. I'm sure of it. I have heard of lost things never found in that place. I hate myself! Why do I have to be so forgetful? I wanted to cry awhile ago. Well I did but not as how much I wanted to scream and cry. Bullsh*t!

I hate it when I forget things. I don't have amnesia or something, but right now I wanted to have some. To forget that I did something stupid. Everything's a mess. Life's a mess. :(

Now, if it's really lost, I need to buy one. And not from the school. It'll cost me. I wanted to drop that class right now. I really hate it.

Also, there is this instance awhile ago when I have a very strong feeling that I forgot something. It's my instincts! It keeps on telling me that I forgot something! Sometimes my instincts are always right. But i never listened. I didn't even doubted why my things are less and light. I really hate it. :((

WHY?!?!!! =((

PS. Sorry for the bad words. I really wanted to release my anger. :(( And it's easier for me release it here i think. By writing what my mind says. :'( Oh please, I wanted my swimsuit be found and returned to me. :(( Please Lord, please. :'( My only prayer for this day. :'(
Or just get me from here. I don't want to be here anymore. Take me somewhere far! There's so much regret I feel right now. I wanted to be away. I want to forget this feeling. Help me please... :((
I'm feeling zombie. I don't know what to do. I think I can't feel anything right now. I'm out of my mind.